Last night, I dreamt I was at church, waiting for service to start. My heart was heavy and I was filled with shame for a sin that I committed. The service started and my pastor began to preach but then stopped suddenly and said she could not go on; something was wrong.
I knew in my heart it was me.
She exits to leave, but stops again and starts preaching from the aisle. She moves through each pew. Suddenly, she stops in front of me. It feels as if a lead ball is sitting in my stomach. I become overwhelmed with shame.
My sin has stopped the service. It's unknown to the others, but it is known by God. It's known by me.
I expect condemnation and shouting. I'm a sinner. I don't belong there. I expect to be thrown out of the church for my unknown sin interrupting the service.
Yet it's not what I receive.
Lovingly she says: "Daughter, what have you done? Repent and be set free." She hugs me as I say a prayer of repentance.
Where I felt shame; I received loved. Where I had sin, through repentance I received restoration.
When I woke up, I had a conversation with God and repented for my sin.
He loves me so much, He came to me in my dreams just to restore me back to Him.
Here's my prayer for today:
Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! -Psalm 139
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